Radiation 5/8 completed, and I ended up in the emergency department shortly thereafter 😫
I was feeling more fatigued heading into treatment this morning, but I knew that could be expected. I spoke with a nurse and the radiation oncologist after treatment because I was feeling more short of breath. It quickly escalated, and while my oxygen saturation remained perfect, my heart rate and respirations were increasing and I started to become dizzy. Once they had me lie down, my left arm went numb, then my right, then both of my feet. I felt buzzing, tingling, and shaking everywhere in my body, but I couldn’t lift or move my arms or hands.
They called a code, ran a bunch of tests, and sent me via ambulance to the ED. A CT angio and echo were essentially normal. The EKG showed some abnormalities, and given my history of chemo-induced cardiomyopathy and heart palpitations, I’m now stuck wearing a holter monitor for the next month.
I was thankfully able to come home tonight, but I am beyond exhausted. I’m so tired of being so scared all the time. I’m in so much pain from the week as it is, now I had to miss my chiropractic appointment, and my body’s been put through the wringer today… when it’s already trying to heal from radiation 😭
We’ll have to see how the weekend goes, but they’re still planning to continue treatment next week, while monitoring me closely. I will do my best to rest up this weekend, but there’s always so much to catch up on after getting home, and of course, I want to spend quality time with the kids.
I’m grasping desperately for hope, trying to find faith through the fear, but this monsoon of Shit can go away already!!!! I’m finding it very difficult to move through the anger and grief from all we’ve been dealt these last few years. Enough is enough!!!
I am ready for my miracle 🙏
Lauren MG Doyle 